Honesty

This is a picture of me from today. No makeup. No smile. Just me and some Starbucks. I never post pictures like these because I'm too afraid of what people will think. Wow. I finally said it. And what a relief that was. And so true. So why did I take the picture in the first place? I think maybe because I'm ready to stop hiding. I'm ready to find out who I really am and not be afraid to share me with the world. This is a picture of Starbucks getting me through a tough day (more on that later). I wish I could say that the love of Jesus is what gets me through the day, but that wouldn't be true. Though Jesus' love is real and abounding and endless and sufficient, I don't rely on it completely. But I absolutely can. I absolutely should. I'm working on it... Right now, to be honest, I still need Starbucks.

One thing I want more of in my life is honesty. If this blog is finally going to be a thing, I want it to be honest. That doesn't mean I'm going to share every personal dilemma that occurs in my life. Doing that cultivates negativity and negative is not who I am or who I want to be. Who I am is a believer, a wife, an artist, a pet parent, a student, and a caregiver. These are the things I'm going to write about. These are the things I hope will connect with people; with you. These are the things I want to be honest about, and honestly, being these things—being who I am, is not always easy.

In fact, today, being a caregiver has been especially hard.

There are not a lot of folks outside my inner circle that know about my caregiver role. There are even fewer who know what that role entails. For now, I'm going to keep it that way. I just wanted to restart this blog with a bit of honesty.

I don't know what the next post will be about, I just know that I want to post again. This summer, I'm going to do a lot of things I've been putting off. I'm excited. I'm scared. But it's okay. At the end of the day, everything is going to be okay. I hope you find comfort in that. I do. This blog is a work in progress, and so are we. 

Peace.